Need Some Motivation in Science

Well since last year I have been obsessed with physics. Every little thing in my life I viewed as a physics problem. Example: (Me listening to music)
Me: Hmmm. If a sound wave travels at 230 m/s and the wave length is 20 cm. What's the frequency?
Haha. I know Im weird but I thought about this and many other things that I learned in my first year in physics. Be it refraction, diffraction, electromagnetism, gravity, ect.....
I loved (still do) and was obsessed with physics. I wanted to be a theoretical physicist and explore the laws of the universe. Fill my curiosity and learn how the world around me works. But lately I've been having doubts about physics. What's the point? What if I do find a theory that will unlock some secrets of the universe? Its not the money part I care about. Could care less about that. Its just that those laws/theories seem pointless. Why work my whole life to figure something out and then die having the possibility that these laws might not apply to the afterlife (if it even exists). I would have wasted my whole life on something that meant nothing. Yes, it might help others after my death, but at the expense of me not enjoying my life to the fullest. Why should other people hang out with friends and have a good time while Im going to spend every second of my life working on physics? I guess Im exaggerating that I will work every second of my life and not hangout with friends but the reality is I won't have much time to do much if I do purse being a physicist. Its not that I don't believe that I can't make it. I have a pretty optimistic view on everything and believe anything is possible to some extent. Its just that I feel that I will be wasting my time. I would rather meet new people. Maybe travel around the world. Meet new people, see their way of life and their culture, and just overall having fun with life. I guess Im just a kid right now and want my life to be all fun, but who doesn't? I just want to live my life to the fullest. I guess many of you won't really care about what I think, and maybe even think Im kinda dum for thinking this (cough cough sky cough). But it kinda hurts that my dream of being a scientist was crushed by a simple thought :(

I used to have a good idea of what my future was but now I have no idea and its scary to be honest. I might travel the world, become a DJ (hahahah lol XD), or maybe even just be a beach bum. If anyone has advice comment below. Thanks for reading :)

Religion

Me being a scientific guy, I don't really see the faith in religion. Yes its possible god exists but wheres the proof? I constantly ask my parents on it and they just say that there is no other explanation. I find that to be very close minded and ignorant point of view.

Why is it that this idea of a higher being that created everything has existed for so long, however no evidence has ever been shown? I can only hypothesis to why it is. For the idea of an all loving, merciful, forgiving, and ever lasting deity does sound nice. Knowing that he will always be with you no matter what you have done, in what state you are, or how you feel. He is always their to lend a helping hand. This along with being promised a place in heaven (prompted you are good) is undeniably unresistable. Still it all seems flawed to me. Why would this god who is all loving send you to hell just because you have sinned? I thought he was all forgiving and merciful!!! He is said to be perfect yet he constantly needs you to pray for him. I thought you were perfect Mr.God. I know I might sound like Im bashing religion, but how else do you expect progress if the cracks in the idea aren't pointed out. As learned in our first day of english class, one becomes more educated and less ignorant when you take other opinions to mind. Like any other religion, they only believe in their practices/beliefs and go against the rest. This in its self shows how close-minded people have really gotten.

If you guys want to try and argue from your point of view just message me below in the comment area.